WEll tonight I'm just feeling pretty damn sorry for myself. Been watchin the news, realising I was born into a THICK family. I fucked my life up. I'm 30 - quite old - but I still feel there's a chance. I hope there is. POOR LITTLE TIT BITCH IS FUCKIN UNHAPPY. x Drinking again. I feel gutted to the core of my being. About my mistakes, my family, what went wrong, the missed chances of a lifetime. I am in pain. LOTS OF PAIN. But I feel that I must continue. KEZ.